Me and my P90X

So for my birthday my mom bought me P90X. That was back in August. I got everything ready and did really good for about 4 weeks. Lost about 3 pounds the first week, gained a pound the second, and stayed exactly the same for weeks 3 and 4.

Then I decided I wasn't really getting the results that I wanted, so I decided I was going to do the P90X lean. So I took a week off from the workout and just followed the nutrition plan. In that one week I lost 10 pounds! I was so excited. After my week (which actually turned into 2) I started on the lean program. After a few days I left for Arizona to visit my baby sister and didn't take the DVD's with me.

I've been home for 2 weeks and just can't seem to find the motivation to get back into it... I even got a yoga mat, as I was using a towel on my carpet and my hands would slide out from under me during downward dog (which is a fairly common move in the cardio workouts I've noticed.) I have everything I need, except the motivation. It's frustrating... I know I can do it (I did 4 weeks) and it makes me proud to say I'm doing the P90X, as anyone who knows the program knows it's Extreme.

I think my biggest problem is that there is no structure in my daily routine right now. My bf works from home some days, works some weekends not others. I feel like I'm invading on his relaxing time when I'm taking up the TV for an hour. We have 2, but I like to work out in the back where every Tom, Dick, and Harry walking down the street can't see me. To get around this I was doing my workouts at night, after he goes to bed. And even though I'm up till the wee hours of the morning, working out at 2 in the morning isn't working for me. I'm not tired, but my body is, and I'm not doing the exercises right, or pushing myself to do my best. So I gave up the late at night thing.

I know this journey won't be easy. I'm not expecting it to be. I just wish I had the motivation to get my butt in gear again. I thought I had my depression pretty much licked, but these last few weeks without working out have let the blues creep back in. Someone kick me in the arse.... I could really use it right now!